Suddenly Gone

I have been going back and forth trying to decide if I would post this, and I decided that I would.
When I started my blog I intended for it to be a fun way to talk about my family and show some incredibly UGLY pics of myself and some really CUTE pics of my fam. Also, to educate all of you (my dear friends and friends of friends who read each others blogs) about Structural Bodywork and the truly amazing way it changes lives. Also, I planned to use my blog as a type of journal. I consider myself to be a deep and personal person that does not have a problem sharing my thoughts and opinion's with others. Not trying to persuade anyone in a specific direction, but also just being as real as I can be with every person that I know. I have made so many friends in all different aspects of life and I love each individual for just that. Them being an individual and being who they are. I try hard not to judge and make assumptions towards a way of life that is different then mine, realizing that each person I have ever come in contact with played a part for the minute, day, weeks and years that they were around. A lot of friends I have moved away from and maybe haven't even spoken to in years, but I think of them and could run into them in the store and still talk to them just the same as when we were last together.

With that being said, I lost a friend that I grew up with a month ago, a close friend lost her husband last week, my grandpa passed away 2 days ago and yesterday I received a call that made me sit down and bawl. A friend that I had grown to love and become close to passed away in a horrific car accident along with her 8 year old son. Her middle child was flown to Primary Children's with neck and facial injuries and is said to be in stable condition.

I saw the accidents aftermath and all I could say was that it was an extremely terrible crash. I never expected the individuals inside would be those that I loved.

I tried to put a feeling on the feelings that I was experiencing and pure devastation was all I could feel. You tend to cry and then get yourself together and understand what happened, where was she going, what happened to make her veer from the road, cry more and then suddenly break down feeling helpless, angered and selfish that it isn't right or fair and that you didn't say Goodbye.

When I had Dylan I realized that life was more precious then I could ever comprehend to that point and that life as I knew it would forever be changed. Life comes at you in a seconds flash and can be gone just as fast. When I asked Kassie's mom if she needed anything all she wanted was to turn back time. She told me that she thought if she just loved her kids enough then they would always be ok. My heart hurts so much because I loved Kassie and her children and I love her family. I spent so much time being with them and I think that is what makes it hurt more, is knowing how bad they are hurting. I think we always take for granted our time. Time to talk, laugh, cry, vent our anger, sit at the computer blogging, spend precious precious minutes with our children and our loved ones, and calling or stopping by to see our friends- new or old. We always say we will, but something comes up.

I intended this post to just ramble and cry but also to tell EVERY person who reads this that I know in one way or another, that I have had the opportunity to spend countless hours with or just minutes at a time, that I am so grateful to know you and that you are truly meaningful to me. All of your relationships have impacted my life and I take a little to grow with. Our lives have a purpose and Life was intended to be lived. Live it and Love it every single day to the last drop!


Kassie Shae Lee and Jerym Samuel Lee passed away on August 18 and their lives touched many. My love and prayers go out to the Pectol and Lee Families.

We love you Kas and Jer-Ber